hi there, been wanting to post some extravagant sneek peek abt my busy life lately. but as my busy life keeps me busy, it's hard for me to even open a blog that doesnt have medical fact in there. i barely can use my laptop if its not for the usual-tuesday-and-friday medical discussion.
i hardly recognize myself. a lot has changed, and i just couldn't accept that.
you know, I'm not the study type. for my whole 18 years, I've never study at home, not until h-1 exam. i fall asleep whenever i read text book. i don't take notes from every day's subject. i chat all the time with people around me, and yes, teachers recognized me for that, they even tried to separate me with my friends, but they always end up surrounding me. sometimes, i don't even go to my class when the break time is already over. i ask a few friends of mine to accompany me to eat some snacks or just hangout in the canteen. and for some reasons, i thought teachers would like that way better. at least i wont bother them teaching.
the question is
if learning is not my thing
then
why did i choose
medical
school?
i dont know. i just happened want to be a doctor. and i love biology, even if i never say i hate math. and i still can handle chemistry well. the only problem i had is with physics but i don't think that will be such a barrier for my way to be a doctor.
im not one of those freaking nerdy geniuses who will study days and nights. not having an equivalent time for their mind to get refresh and search some fun instead of seek for answer. but i wont mind to learn about human, its bodies, the system of the human bodies which was so compli-fackin-cated. well, since that system has dramatically stolen my attention, i guess i'll make a little exception for my living pattern.
so, it came as a real shock when i realized that.....its not even an exception anymore. it has became me. I'm officially a medical school student. i study at night, i don't chat when the doctor's teaching, it makes me think a lot whenever i want to get out from my class just for a little fun, and the magical part is....i barely touch my laptop and its Internet connection. my laptop was my life. and now i barely touch it. i guess that i really have changed after all. or maybe, I've got a new life that more adventurous than $y old one
perhaps this new life of mine is good for me. perhaps i need to fill my head with more useful stuff. perhaps its time to change my habits, from hanging out everyday to filling my head with those good and useful stuff. from doing some tap tap dance everyday to take another step to the higher level day by day.
i hate it when people changed.
but sometimes
you need to sincerely let them change
to be better as they aged
and i believe
one day
we will understand
that change
is the one thing
you cannot avoid
you need to change
to seek for your true self. for your future.
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