can I call your name twice?

This is way too beautiful. The Universe is beautiful. And I'm way too easy too in love. Or you guys are way too easy to know how to make me falling. This is lovable and I can't let all of this marvellous happiness pass me by. True friends are very rare, most of us even haven't find it yet. That's the thing i feel thankful the most from my life. Perhaps, I'm one of those lucky people who has got their truly one. As I grow up, I learn that even the person that wasn't suppose to hurt me, probably will. And yes, I'm pretty much scared of that fact. But all these years, they have proven that they aren't the one who will hurt me. That's the story why I believe them.

I feel so much tired with unfaithfulness and betrayal. There's once of my life, when everything was so out of control and I can't do anything to make it right again except waiting and let it find its right way. And see? Everything got back to normal, or I can even say.... better. My life is perfect now. For now. I don't know what will gonna happen for the next 2 months, a week, half day, 45 minutes, or even 20 seconds. But hey, why should I give any shit? Enjoying my nowa-perfect life is fine. And it won't hurt. So, I enjoy it.

Someone asked me on my formspring, how could I be that happy? Well, they say, life is hard. So, why should I make it harder? As hard as climbing the mountain or as easy as flowing the river, its all up to you. And sometimes, you can be careless enough to turn your fine life into the fed up one. Watch out people, your destiny on your own hands.

I don't wanna be unhappy. Even if I am unhappy, I don't wanna feel the horrible feeling of unhappiness. I'll do anything to be happy again and ignoring the suffer. Once you feel that suffer, you will got nothing but wasting your limited time. With suffer. You'll think its nightmare. Just a fucking terrifying nightmare, You'll want to wake up so hard. Hoping by waking up, this would all go away. You'll try to close your eyes, and you'll pinch your self really hard. Bit it simply won't work. You'll the urgent feeling of wanna die. You may travel here and you travel there, trying to get out from under the cloud, and nothing works, without realising the fact that you've been carrying the weather around with you.

I don't wanna be like that. I'll make my own happiness, from people around me :)

And, talking about happiness. Yet, my bf has brought me too much, too much happiness. And for the record, from 13 months until a months ago, I still think that I'm the one that getting crazy over him. But knowing the fact that it isn't, I feel a slight relieved creeping over my body, warming my tiny little heart, and whispering the melody in order to calm myself down.

Well, we do the fight. Who doesn't? But the fight make our relationship even merrier. I want this last forever. I don't want you to change. Not for me.

Te Amo, Mi Amigo