I better keep the dance stay alive

Things aren't going well lately .October-September are pretty suck ,can't wait to go through over it .At this time ,feeling blue as usual ,struggling lying complaining asking about the unfair treatment of life .This isn't me .Who the heck I am then ?Enough for the frustration It isn't him ,it isn't her .How could I blame them then ?I shouldn't act like this .It hurt more than ever .None of my act lately seemed to be worth doing .Keeping all of this bullshits spinning around and juggling me out .Me myself cant even tell you what's going on .
I need to stop stalking her ,her ,and anyone stop stop stop .How can I find myself if I keep glancing up to somebody like that ?STOP STOOP STOOOP and it frighten me out .Frankly ,she has no face .No style .No brain .No body .No attitude .And she's not even famous .So what's wrong with me keep stalking her like she's the most important girl in the world ?What's on earth is going on with me lately ?????
I keep crying .He asked me to stop .He asked me to say everything I want .He asked me to stop .He said he'll do everything I want .He asked me to stop .He asked me to cry on his shoulder .He asked me to stop .He hugged me .He asked me to stop .He wrapped his hand on my neck .He asked me to stop .He wiped my tears off .He asked me to stop .He wiped my cheek .He asked me to stop .He asked me what's going on .He asked me to stop .He offered me a tissue .He asked me to stop .He kissed my cheek .He asked me to stop .He asked me to stop .And then he hugged me tautly .I was so stupid and dumb and fool and bitch and gloom
He is the best thing God had given to me .And all I have to do is to taking care of him .What makes it so hard then ?

I NEED TO BELIEVE ,EVERY CLOUD HAS A SILVER LINING