is it ♥ ?

"For me ,true love is the sweetest thing in life. That's why we're all either in love or looking for love. Sometimes you have to work for it--especially when life gets in the way-- but I believe true ,deep love is always worth fighting for"

Fellas ,how's love treat you lately ?Mine was pretty......hectic. Well, sometimes I feel kinda silly for being in love . But, hey do you guys think this one is true ? I feel slightly shaky to tell the truth, I'm afraid to be in love. I'm afraid to get lift too up and then get push hardly to the ground. I don't want that. Call me coward ,yes I am. But I'm afraid truly afraid. What if he's not the one? What if I did choose the wrong person.....? Again

A cold feeling begins to creep over me, this is all wrong. I've been completely uncool, but somehow I just don't care. There's a pain growing inside my chest. I swallow hard. Can anybody tell me the characteristic of true love? Does it shining? Does it warm? Does it make you feel protected? Does it allow to to be happy for every little time in your life? or.....Does it hurt? Does it make you trapped into it and get stucked? Does it make you regretted it? It's become more confusing by the way. I feel weary and miserable

I believe in love, I mean.... I'm trying to believe it. But, how can I believe that something like love can bring us into happiness while still there are errors in it.I don't know if it makes me a bad person or whatever, but I can't pretend for more. It's kinda shameful, you know

Everyone's moving on without me, into the world I don't understand

p.s : Caca ,a friend of mine doesn't like the way I write my blog by giving space before the dot, so I changed into normal. A space after the dot --blahblah whatever just enjoy :)